I'm going through a writer's block. Just to take my frustrations out.
My Eid ul Fitr was ruined by some family shit. The only difference on Bakra Eid was that the incident happened on 2nd day. All Eid holidays were spent at home while I tried to study for my exams. Since then, people have been saying that I have not been the same person. I realised it too. I have been quiet. Not enjoying anything at all. Even the BBQ party with friends. Tried to be back on cricket field today. Didn't do anything else than conceding 18 runs in an over. And now here I am, with a book open in front of me, out of anything to do. Craving to listen to sad songs and breaking that promise with myself to not go to that emo mode again. Just finished up completing a sad songs playlist.
Realised another thing tonight that I care too much for everyone. Too fucking much. And it always end up people appreciating (asking to shut the hell up) me for it. I can't see anyone sad, that's my weakness but gotta realise that I have no responsibility to cheer up every single person. Yeah, someone surely needs to put that inside me.
Pray for me that I start studying. Praying for my exams won't help if I never really start studying.
Bye.
My Eid ul Fitr was ruined by some family shit. The only difference on Bakra Eid was that the incident happened on 2nd day. All Eid holidays were spent at home while I tried to study for my exams. Since then, people have been saying that I have not been the same person. I realised it too. I have been quiet. Not enjoying anything at all. Even the BBQ party with friends. Tried to be back on cricket field today. Didn't do anything else than conceding 18 runs in an over. And now here I am, with a book open in front of me, out of anything to do. Craving to listen to sad songs and breaking that promise with myself to not go to that emo mode again. Just finished up completing a sad songs playlist.
Realised another thing tonight that I care too much for everyone. Too fucking much. And it always end up people appreciating (asking to shut the hell up) me for it. I can't see anyone sad, that's my weakness but gotta realise that I have no responsibility to cheer up every single person. Yeah, someone surely needs to put that inside me.
Pray for me that I start studying. Praying for my exams won't help if I never really start studying.
Bye.
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